Saturday, December 16, 2006
WTHbefore continuing to read on, its quite a long post.
its not about alex, its not about my bf, its not about my family. but someone <> whom I have mentioned about in my previous last time posts in november =)
I am missing someone again.
Been to so many places with you on A single day.( one month plus ago )
1st stop- yew tee mrt station 830am, heading to wherE? we both duno. cuz its early .
2nd stop-Headed to orchard,TAka, saw the competition there, the one wherby one have to put your hands on the car, the one that stays longest there can win the car. ANd you said you want to join it next year, haha.
3rd stop- Headed to delifrance for breakfast. You treated me as you owe me=) I ate the most exp one which you wanted to eat. but in the end you ate the cheapest I guess. oops. Its the first time I ate delifrance breakfast, n its the first n last time I guess I am gonna eat wit you isnt it? cuz you dont bother me already. WTH.
But the most memorable day in delifrance, you cut for me the whole burger, cuz silly me don't know how to cut . haha.
4th stop- walk walk. slack slack.
5th stop- Went Kbox at cineleisure ! K lunch! you sang nice=)
6th stop- slack slack again
7th stop- Went almost everyplace in orchard,= HMV, far-east-
8th stop- walked to PS! haha. reached there walked walked n round round .haha. cuz we been chatting while walking, and not going into the shops at all.
9th stop- went to little India. lost our way. haha. found the shopping mall, sit at the stairs there, chat chat.
Next stop- walked to bugis.
Next stop- its 830PM. send me home till BUkit batok=)
and it was the day the nite, you said you will be there always for me if i need you/help, or when I m sad.
K.C.U.F
I dont feel good anymore.
What fren do you treat me as?
Memories will always be kept in my heart , this is the only thing I can say and left to say only.
Last mon walked past delifrance in orchard, taka, memories of our laughters flashed back.
Such a nice fren, but now u don't even look back at me now.
What u left for me, is just a day, a week close friendship.
You made me feel so confused. You confided your sorrows, your happiness, all on the day. But the very next few days. You lost contact with me. You made me feel that you don't want this friendship. The one that we built up. You are not honest with you decision. You don't even bother to let me know what is happening when I am damn FOok caring for you. You never even reply me nor call me at all.
Okay, I know that this is full of craps and shit. You will not crap with me anymore.
I treasure everything. I don't like REGRET. No one knows what happen next min, next day,in future. So I forgive n forget about how cold you are the days. how you tell me you are busy with you life, n you couldn't get to tell me. its okay. I still try to talk to you always. I even ask you, am i irritating? YOU SAID NO! you said NO, if I m, you will tell me. THATS GREAT> so u are so busy with your life. hais.
I tried to give up, forgetting you my friend, i even tried to erase you from my memory. its been a month plus that we didnt get close like the day, many people told me just forget it. move on. you will come back telling me u miss me fren or so. But I know its never going to happen.
one day n it will leave you footprints. deep deep footprints. With talking, craps, phone, sms. msn.deep memories.
Friends appreciate what I have done for them ma?
Well, I have something to add on. its going to be saying ANOTHER fren- this person is PC.
She is my dear, our anniversary is 2nd of every month. but we have not been smsing each other on the month of the day anymore. I miss her. she is always so stubborn. No one left her out during our meeting on HS bdae. but she insist n blogged on her blog that she is left out n so on....makes me feel damn sad n angry. only HWA understand me.
I noe that she is feeling very troubled and have many r/s problems. I can see from her blog n friendster so on. I really really put in my part. I asked her what happen. telling her i m there. jus tell me and so. She didnt reply me in msn. so i sms her. she jus replied nothing. really disappointed. she just don;t wan to share with me. HEY gal, its you whom told me b4 that you hope that in future, when we are in different sch, I will still tell u my problems cuz you care. But now, I want to care for u, n noe what happen. you dun even want to share. really sad. I did not give up, always i tell myself maybe at the time i asking you , its not e right time. so i tried other day. N reading ur blog, knowing you told ur NEW poly frens,bao bei n so.... abt your problems... so what u wan me to feel? Exactly you wanting me to feel that I am no longer one you will seek for listener. So you don't have to say u have no one to be there for you, because you have so. N I m there always, but you don't want. Hahas. its your choice i noe. I even msg u to ask u take care cuz you are sick n so on. but u didnt even bother to reply a thank you or so to let me noe you appreciate. Its sucks.
I am just the silly one. always trying to care for you n HT, but both of you don't need me isn't it.
someone tell me am i silly? what should i do?
but i never hate them, i am just a silly gal. cuz i love them. stupid fool! rite!
You are why I live for... at -12/16/2006 12:24:00 AM