As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
These days...
I have been saying to myself to start my PP, but I failed to do each day...
I can't concentrate...I wish dear was beside me and helping me...
I believe when I fall in love with you it will be forever
You are why I live for... at -2/25/2007 01:32:00 PM
To those guys whom don't know how to love...
If you don't know how to love or rather if you are not ready in the relationship...
Then you should not even start it
Always hearing from you guys mouth that you don't want to hurt the person thats why end it because you are not ready and so...
If its so, then you shouldn't even start it...
Once you start it, knowing you will hurt the person...then why start it?
And even dare to say you want stop it cause you don't want to hurt the person..?
If you really don't want to hurt the person then you should not even start knowing you want it end this way...
Guys please don't use the reason' tired' to break up...
baby don't ever to that or other reason ...=D
wow, really so emo, sorry wor for guys whom are reading... but if you are not this kind then its good..and better don't be this kind...
For Pei Ching,
I don't know if you will be reading this blog... but I am always the same still care and love you like always ...
We really drift apart a lot... its sad to say...But what can we do, fact is fact...
We can only change the fact unless we both willing to meet up, chat with each other more...
i am always willing, but are u willing to open up and share your feelings and problems with me like the past?
Sugen asked me, ' so jas, you get to know about ting and ching life's from friendster, msn , blogs?
I said, yes, its funny...
7 sisters. and it became so pathetic that I have to go and see their updates for the publics and update myself...ITS SAD LAH!
hahas, but what to do?
But hope you can feel that I care for you and not trying to make you feel pathetic or trying to make myself like a angel....
Cause I never ever will do that...
I really care for you as a fren, I wish to be there for you, I want to know what happen to help you, to be your listener, to lend you my shoulders to cry if you want...
Just want to let you know, frens around me will know how much I treasure and still treasuring our friendship....even if we are like strangers now, when on the streets you saw me like you saw someone you don't wish to see... I still treasure you...our 7 yrs friendship...
I know you have your more 'click' friends around you... but I still hope you will never forget that I am still the one whom wants to talk you, hanging around with you... Be your listener and wanting you be my listener as well...
The most sad thing is whenever I read negative things about you saying abt the gals in sec sch in
But I still care.... cause I don't want to lose this friendship...
Perhaps people will say I thinking too much, or so…but so what if I am really thinking too much? I did not think much also, just wishing to get better with my friend I used to be good with only what…and it shows how important this friend is=D
For Pei Ming,
its been quite long since we contact... recently you contact me... remember you saying your life is miserable you going to die or so...
I wasn't shocked at all... because I know you won't do it...
I know you too well...
I remember how I knew you...how we get along...how we even get so close , somehow I became your mei' and you became my 'jie...
well, jie... I and you always happens to have the same problem...
I remember e past we always always face the same problem with our bf's...
I remember when she tells me she break up with her bf..i will be there silence...because I know it will be my turn next...always like tat... Believe it or not...hahas, e next moment or next few days my bf will say that to be as well... hate the feeling!
But now won't liao right dear?
We will start to complain to each other and ask each other how... when we don't know the answer or even if we know the answer but don't want to face the fact...
hahas... thinking back makes me laugh on our sillyness..
But Why are we this way... Only you n me understand...Cause we loves our partner deeply...deep from our heart...Little things will makes our heart and mind goes off...
Now what you are facing, I can say I understand....
As a friend, I can't help much...But gal don't worry, I am not like your friends whom will put all faults on you and make you more miserable...
I am always here for you... But sorry sometimes you midnight call me I am not here, cause I am really PIG ....sorry...
but sometimes I feel so useless... i see you i can't help you at all...
Wah, writing so much...like aunty liao...
Not trying to blame anyone or what...
just a part of my life...
You are why I live for... at -2/24/2007 12:51:00 AM
And
I don't want to be alone...
You are why I live for... at -2/24/2007 12:03:00 AM
Met up with pohying today for shopping! I wanted to buy somethings for the special someone...n also accompany pohying to look for new yr top's.
Very thoughtful and good of her, she gave me a gift...she said was a christmas gift she wanted to give me last yr=) I am so shocked , but happy ^^ thanks ! She also brought me her MVP qing ren... The show I yearned to see for so long...n i did not remind her to bring, but she remembers that I wanted to watch ! So thoughtful of her isn't it? Winks
We headed to places in orchard, cinelesiure, heeran, far-east...
I brought a watch for myself, and some other things which can't be said...
hahas
Guess who we met during our shopping half -way?
Firstly, we saw someone familar, it seems to look like hweeting, then we decided to look nearer...n it's really her... So we purposely stand near her...den i tap her shoulders...then she saw us.... her reaction was like...' WAH LAO, WHY U ALL HERE!? ' the tone of hers was like so shocked and it;s like she own the shop...dots.... veri sad .... hais...
so unlucky to see us meh?
We thought she was with her bf or what thats why her reaction like tat...but.... guess she wit who?
she was with peiching loh...
Den pc was in the fitting room, hearing our voices, she was like' OMG, shit, i dun wan come out...'...
How come like that?
we are sisters ... why so shocked to see us? why reaction so bad ?
like u both having affair then got caught by frens sia....
e feeling is this way...so bad...
Nods...=x
Then, on our way home in mrt, saw Alife....
A classmate in our sec 1 and 2 , yet her reaction was so so much better than pc n ht loh...
she still smile , though shocked to see, but e reaction is just different....!
You are why I live for... at -2/08/2007 10:52:00 PM
You are why I live for... at -2/07/2007 10:44:00 PM
You are why I live for... at -2/07/2007 10:31:00 PM
Why is all this happening this way?
Alex alex, please tell me in my dreams, I really don't know what to do...
No one knows exactly how I feel... No one exactly knows how he feels too...
guess only one person will know what is happening, and why it's happening this way, and what we are really thinking...
God knows, he knows everything, every little things, every big things that's happening around ...
I pray hard that things will go fine...
but it's not...
Its' actually very happy, but at another moment its like crap!
You don't understand, people seeing what I type wont understand...
You won't understand...
I have no one to talk to
no one can help me
i need to help myself
but i duno how to
alex alex, in heaven! please send me ur blessings and help me
priest say that u gone up to heaven, we can pray and ask u to bless us, he say that you will pray for ur frens, and help them when they face difficulties
Please, help me this fren... Alex my dear fren,pls pls tell me how
there is no life for me
I can't enjoy my life at all
You are why I live for... at -2/02/2007 01:52:00 PM
Should I be feeling guilty?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
I've been addicted to you.
There's so much life
I've left to live
Share my life, take me for what I am
Cause I’ll never change all my colours for you
Take my love, I’ll never ask for too much
Just all that you are and everything that you do
I don’t really need to look very much further
I don’t want to have to go where you don’t follow
I won’t hold it back again, this passion inside
Can’t run from myself
There’s nowhere to hide
Don’t make me close one more door
I don’t wanna hurt anymore
Stay in my arms if you dare
Or must I imagine you there
Don’t walk away from me...
I have nothing, nothing, nothing
If I don’t have you
These foolish games are tearing me apart
Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
You're breaking my heart
But without you I give up
Now I can't sing a love song
Like the way it's meant to be
Well, I guess I'm not that good anymore
But baby, that's just me
When I watch you look at me
I think I could find a way
To stand for every dream
And forsake this solid ground
And give up this fear within
Of what would happen if they end, you
I'm in love with you
'Cause I'd surrender everything
To feel the chance, to live again
I reach to you
I know you can feel it too
We'd make it through
I know
I can't survive another night away from you
You're the reason I go on
And now I need to live the truth
I'll break free, yeah free
Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry
One that made you have to say goodbye
You are why I live for... at -2/01/2007 11:52:00 AM