One of your close relationships has gone as far as it can, and it may be time for the two of you to admit that fact. This doesn't mean that the two of you have to get out of each other's lives -- it just means that the roles you play will have to change if you are both going to be happy. You might have an easier time accepting this fact than the other person, so be prepared for some resistance -- even if this 'breakup' wasn't even your idea.
You are why I live for... at -1/27/2007 11:37:00 AM
A shelter from the storm
It exists to give you comfort
It is there to keep you warm
And in those times of trouble
When you are most alone
The memory of love will bring you home
Perhaps love is like a window
Perhaps an open door
It invites you to come closer
It wants to show you more
And even if you lose yourself
And don't know what to do
The memory of love will see you through
Love to some is like a cloud
To some as strong as steel
For some a way of living
For some a way to feel
And some say love is holding on
And some say letting go
And some say love is everything
And some say they don't know
Perhaps love is like the ocean
Full of conflict, full of pain
Like a fire when it's cold outside
Thunder when it rains
If I should live forever
And all my dreams come true
My memories of love will be of you
You are why I live for... at -1/25/2007 11:52:00 AM
Alex Lee Zong Xun!!!
Where are you....
I know where are you....but do you know that everyone miss you so much?!
ANd you are in heaven now, without troubles....
but I am ur fren, how could you have no troubles and I have so much!?!
NOT FAIr!hahas
Ya, the world is not fair...I just want to end all this things....
I don't want people around me to be suffering and getting hurt by ME!
I am not a good girl...
really, I am bad....
Beware of the players, they'll steal your heart
And they'll give it back, all torn apart
Don't let them suck you into their game
Because once you lose, you are never the same
No one will understand me right now...
how miserable I am...
My friends can be with me I know...
But they won't be able to help me make every step I have to...
You are why I live for... at -1/25/2007 11:39:00 AM
When it comes to people pushing your buttons, enough is enough! If someone is getting on your last nerve, today is the day to stop the madness. Do whatever you can to remove this person from the picture -- even if it means you have to remove yourself from their environment. It might be a good idea to get off on your own for a while, regardless. You could use a little time to slow down the pace of your life and just watch the world swirl around you.
You are why I live for... at -1/25/2007 10:55:00 AM
Whether your realize it or not, you are your own best friend -- and today you should evaluate this relationship. Are you taking care of yourself well enough? Or do you follow the path of least resistance and put yourself at the bottom of the list most of the time? Today, start your relationship with yourself in a new way and put yourself first! You should still honor your commitments to other people, but you should start standing up for your own wants and needs more.
Omg, I think its really true...from what is happening today... its true...HOW?=x
You are why I live for... at -1/22/2007 01:07:00 AM
I wish that my friend you are with me now...
fri night you saw me rubbing my eyes, asking me is it crying or what?
I said nope, not crying lah...its true, yest night not crying no matter how worried I am..
But right now, I cried, and I wonder if you are beside me, what will you do when you see n know I really crying?
You are why I live for... at -1/21/2007 01:18:00 AM
For My friends I Will:
When you're feeling lost in the night
When you feel your world just ain't right
Call on me, I will be waiting
Count on me, I will be there
Anytime the times get too tough
Anytime your best ain't enough
I'll be the one to make it better
I'll be there to protect you
See you through
I'll be there and there ain't nothing
I won't do
(Chorus:)
I will cross the ocean for you
I will go and bring you the moon
I will be your hero, your strength
Anything you need
I will be the sun in your sky
I will light your way for all time
I promise you
For you I will
I will shield your heart from the rain
I will let no harm come your way
Oh, these arms will be your shelter
No, these arms won't let you down
If there is a mountain to move
I will move that mountain for you
I'm here for you, I'm here forever
I will be your fortress
Tall and strong
I'll keep you safe, I'll stand beside you
Right or wrong
(Repeat chorus)
(Bridge:)
For you I will
Lay my life on the line
For you I will fight (oh, oh)
For you I will die
With ev'ry breath, with all my soul
I'll give my word, I'll give it all
Put your faith in me
(Put your faith in me)
And I'll do anything
(Repeat chorus)
I will, I will, I will
(Repeat chorus)
I promise you
For you I will (I will)
I promise you
For you I will
You are why I live for... at -1/21/2007 12:38:00 AM
okay, wish that Alex is doing very well now in heaven, its 3rd month already...
good that I got companion'(s) yesterday night=)
And I did not think about the sad things
1st part:
Well, yesterday met up with quite a number of people...
Aaron, Jakin, Chee Siang, Alvin, Shu Hui, Si Wei, Yan ling, Huey yuan, geok hwa...should be like tat, hope didn;t miss any names ba...lols
Chat at siang's rojak coffeeshop there... that's near hong kah sec there... wow, i miss hKs truely badly..hahas.. gathered till 12 like tat...
PS: Don't always think that he is so bad, you know girls always tend to say things till they are innocent and so ke lian... some may be true, but some are just that e girl thinking too much... I am not blaming anyone, you can voice your opinions and so, but think of yourself and put yourself in other's shoes first=) I don;t know how to say sorry
2nd part:
Then, really see azmi lols, riding his bike passing by us...suprised=)
He agreed to send me, but met him and the soccer mates of his at the canal there first, hahas, cant' blame they miss me so much and want chat with me lols! =) hahas, thought will be kinda funny and weird....but still okay, and good time catching up with them^^ though in times they keep talking malay but I don't really felt left out or what, because he will keep talk to me when I alone... thanks frens, so nice of you, always disturbing me lols?!
'' Beat beat'' hahas
I was kinda worried over dear, he nv msg /call me, den I keep looking on my phone...then got caught by them from my worries, hahas. In e end dear msg me...phew...=0
Well, i know my bunch of frens starts saying abt me n him...but you all wont' know the Friendship with me n him=) its not as though as you all thought, not that the guy treats you good or willing to do more means likes you or you likes him... I know maybe you all are just saying /playing /making fun of me, but just to let you all know la, =)
PS: Am I a good girl/girlfriend? Hahas, my bunch of frens say I am good...
And the azmi there, says that I am such a bad gf, lols....
I Know they kidding though....
You are why I live for... at -1/20/2007 01:37:00 PM
It's difficult to watch friends struggle with the death of a loved one. You want to express your sympathy and regret, but how? What words can you say or write to bring them comfort? And what if you bring their pain back to the surface? (In reality, the pain is already there, bringing it to the surface doesn't make it hurt any more.) What if you make them feel even worse than they already do? (In reality, that's probably not possible.)
For the most part, just being there for your friend is a good start.
You are why I live for... at -1/17/2007 12:58:00 AM
Oh yes! finally ended my weekend work....
After work, just now went to church alone.... parents went sat's church already, then xiong got work, so left wit me alone going to st.fransis one...
But surprisingly, I met xiong's sister in the church....woooo, luckily! means I don't need to see lex alone after church=) lols.....
Then , went to meet Shuhui at hong kah sec there...asked her meet 7pm...as usual..8plus den reached.....lols...... Then, don't know want go where after my hair cut..... she say go jp or je...i don;t want...hahas.....so far lah
called hy and hwa, both nv picked up..... then i msged Azmi, lols....at first he dun wan come down cuz he shy to see OWL!
lols
hahas, in e end I lied to him say i alone only...den he came down..hahas,
nice chat wit him , then, his fren zai joined, followed by jun--> duno why he now damn quiet....
PS: Shuhui ! I so ke lian, alone faced wit zai n jun , they both nv talk...dots..... then i pretend sleep loh while waiting for azmi to send u back! And waiting azmi to back,then, my turn to go home=x.....lols
Oh ya, shuhui, azmi say 'nice chatting with us, ask me to send his regards to you OWL
( HAha)...received?
You are why I live for... at -1/16/2007 01:35:00 AM
When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares.
You are why I live for... at -1/16/2007 01:34:00 AM
...
Now its 3am!
and i am blogging here,supposed to sleep early. tml or rather later in the morning going to work full shift! omg... I lay on my bed from 1230 am till 230 am.And i really couldn't sleep!
Means tml I sure tired till can't be explained.12 hrs of work tml and i still can't sleep....
why??? why ??? I really don't know..but being unable to fall asleep..Many things flashed back into my mind! too much till from nothing to a lot of things in my mind....
dots....
i miss dear a lot...till i lay on bed and say 'lao gong, is your working fine right now? have you eaten ? do you miss me? i really miss you !
and my silly thinking was like...hmmmm..if one day .....
i knew Wei Xiong and Alex at the same time , same place, known both of them since small( ever since church class) till sec same sch also, and because of lex, we got to contact once again since lex gone... and even met up a few times...=) but i i cant imagine if one day i lose you this fren ..... so pls take care of yourself and also your family and
I also think of ah ming, hahas. don't know why ah....i remember you told me that you sold your bike away and very sian of riding ever since lex gone.... but u also say ...u wanna buy another bike...lols.....You are another one, another friend I hope you will take care of yourself=) hahas. i will never forget that day!! hahas. sleep on bench ...omg...all my fault ..... sorry....
then, stupid mind thinking of those sad things again!! too much.... too much....
start thinking if one day i lose this friend....and the other friend...and e other....and so on and on...
duno why, everyone , all my precious ones, please, please, be careful and take care of yourself okay! I really can't afford to lose anyone of you....
You are why I live for... at -1/13/2007 03:44:00 AM
What you think?
You are why I live for... at -1/11/2007 11:32:00 PM
You are why I live for... at -1/11/2007 11:28:00 PM
me(green shirt) and wenyan(white shirt) turned back, at heeran escalator, omg...its the 3 finalist of superstar! --> Daren Tan is there , wenyan is crazy for him....make me also crazy for him...after so long, i met a superstar lols.....
most surprisingly is they called us! tis is ridiculous! hard to believe right? you guys must be thinking, eh, don;t be BHB or so lah....lols... but its true lah.... we are infront of them...and we are e only one infront and with white and green shirt....
Okay... si bei excited la, hahas. but didnt talk to him...den we were like saying...eh, should have take a photo with them! den really see them again! omg!
keep bumping into 3 of them!!! alot alot alot of times man.....cant believe it, right wenyan?! its like we try to avoid them, cuss dun wan let them think that we follow or stalk them or so...and we really didn't la, but still bumped into them ok! we walked another exit up, they walked another i think....and we saw each other at 77th street! omg!!
hahas, then, i was there laughing out loud lah...hahas
then, the xiao green bean ( nick name of another superstar finalist,) made some kind of noise when saw us again....
ouch!
cant believe in what I see and what i hear today!
believe it or not,
but its true man,first time got this experience! and too bad we didn't got a chance to take pic with them, and don't think will have a second chance....lols....
Then, I came home told kor about this, because my kor is daren tan friend! And he say aiya, he is a hua hua gong zi....... my kor got his hp no...but he die die don't want to give me!! shit !!=x
hahas.....
You are why I live for... at -1/10/2007 11:21:00 PM
A long video, sweet, beautiful video its really deep and everyone might think its sad,but dont look and listen, feel and hear, Lovely one. Enjoy =)
You are why I live for... at -1/08/2007 01:54:00 PM
I think also very sad song if you lose your fren or loved ones, this song will be suitable for ur feelings for him.
kavana - will you wait for me
i need to talk with you again
why did you go away
all our time together
just feels like yesterday
i never thought i'd see
a single day without you
you see the things we take for granted we can sometimes lose
and if i promise not to feel this pain
will i see you again
will i see you again
time will pass me by
maybe i'll never learn to smile
but i know i'll make it through
if you wait for me
and all the tears i cry
no matter how i try
they'll never bring you home to me
so won't you wait for me in heaven
do you remember how it was
when we never seemed to care
days went by so quickly
cos i thought you'd always be there it's hard to let you go
though i know that i must try
i feel like i've been cheated
cos we never said goodbye
and if i promise not to feel this pain
will i see you again
will i see you again
time will pass me by
maybe i'll never learn to smile
but i know i'll make it through
if you wait for me
so won't you wait for me
and all the tears i cry
no matter how i try
they'll never bring you home to me
so won't you wait for me in heaven
and i miss you so
and i need to know
will you wait for me
time will pass me by
maybe i'll never learn to smile
but i know i'll make it through
if you wait for me
PS; for Alex sister, I understand the pain, this song if you are to hear, hais. but i think its what u want to tell him. =)
You are why I live for... at -1/06/2007 11:43:00 PM
down!
down!
i am seriously feeling down!
too much memories flashing back!
I cant' help it..
tears just won't bring you back.
You are why I live for... at -1/04/2007 01:08:00 PM
You are why I live for... at -1/03/2007 06:29:00 PM
Well, 2006 isn’t really a good year for me, have made many mistakes and of course learnt from them.
Quarrel with dar a lot, hope that 2007 and future ahead of us will be better=)
Alex passed away; hope that 2007 will be a better year, heaven got celebrate 2007 mah? Hahas…
He doesn’t wish to see all his love ones and friends depressed over him, he would wish that everyone knows his heart, and lives healthy and stay strong! Of course, he would wish that people miss him in times too, and this I can assure that everyone does, and its lots of times of missing him. =D
Of course I have made new friends in 2006, E25L, E35M, E36P, you guys rocks!
Just wish that everything goes smoothly as it could be this new year^^
Everyone good health, take care!
My friends will be always there for me, and meet my 7 girls out one day
Achieve good results
Can't waste time over missing something in the past.
Life changes, people grow up and grow apart, and you accept that.
Yet you still can't stop thinking of how good it used to be.
Afraid you'll never experience something like it again;
Afraid you've already lived it and already lost it.
Life is too short…
Grudges are a waste of perfect happiness
Laugh when you can…
Love what you got and always remember what you had
Learn from your own mistakes but never regret
Smile when you are sad…
Life is too short to be unhappy…
Take chances, give everything…
People change and things go wrong…
Apologize when you should…
Always remember life goes on…
You are why I live for... at -1/01/2007 02:48:00 AM
I promise you I will write about you
and I will....
She is one of the 7 girls.
named as 'bai ci' recently. hahas
and somehow I became ' j'ass' ..
You miss my head, I miss your body…winks hahas
Thinking back to our secondary days…
I knew her for since secondary one, been same class for 5 yrs.
if I am not wrong, secondary 3 we sat together in class.
Too much memories, if you want me to say how much you have changed, wow, that’s quite a lot. Just kidding.lols
More pretty, more cutie, more treasure friendship. More hardworking, having more responsible towards things she does ba.
She is still the same cheerful, friendly, easy-going, helpful, late always, but heard she sometimes reached early ? but once in a VERY while right?! Hahas
She is an easy going gal, she very 'on' for a lot things. just one thing, she is a late comer! And lazy ! hahas
She is one that I can easily call her up without much thinking, and just talk to her.
I guess everyone has grown up, I am really happy to know you my dear shu hui!
I remember I used to admire suay’ in my secondary time, because she don’t face those friendship problems.
We girls have many conflicts, but she is always the easy going one, no one will like don’t friend or talk back/bad about her. She is everywhere.
Hahas, but now hor, you like got some friendship problems ah…=(
Remember…
chatting, writing notes in a book of 'ours' , pp write letter and pass around, we more special, our stupid crapness in a book hahas.
Our time in rushing to the canteen for laska! chicken rice!
Staying back for extra lessons
Staying back for netball training during sec 2 or 3, for some class competition…you remember is sec what ?
Sometimes waiting for each other because of CCA
Seeing each other on Saturday due to CCA
Staying back for slacking, talking, gossiping, boredom.
Staying back to see soccer/bball in times…
Going to Jp after school…
Going to the coffee shop at Jeremy house downstairs one…
And I remember the times when she is still at her old house, we used to go her house to cook maggie mee, mess her place! hahas... so fun!!! Going to huishan house watch horror movies ...remember? ouch...
Remember our grad night? Our 1st grad night together, ouch, so touched. Lolls, but I don’t have those photos in my com, because reformatted, you have ma shuhui!?
BBqs after graduate, the one near the school canal there.
Our gatherings we had, some small gathering, some big gathering like Ms Chua house, hope this new 07’ yr we will go visit her again=)
I can’t possibly say out everything, because there is too much to say, too much to remember at a time, hahas.
Laughters,
Secondary life it’s the days we go so crazy, people think we’re high.
It’s the times we’re so bored, we laugh until we cry. <>
It’s the inside jokes, and "remember when"s...
No matter what, we’ll always be best friends.
The greatest memories will always be in secondary school life, I finally understand why…
Secondary life is the best, we know the best and true friends from sec, we met the best and pp we don’t want to lose.
Just for you my dear friend thanks for everything. Thanks for being there when I am down, you are definitely one that can share my sorrows, laughter’s, boredoms, craziness, crapness…thanks god for letting me to know you. And all my friends’ thanks for tolerating my craziness, my sorrows, and my ‘high’ moments, laughing and laughing with you guys.
7gals- remember we told each other, esp. hearing PC saying don’t forget me ah, must stay in contact… must meet up… everyone says that too. remember we said that we shall be attending each other wedding and be the bridemaids, I really hope 7 of us will. So I really hope we can meet up one day. Let all the bygones be bygones, with laughter’s we once shared, with tears and pain we once endured, we shall stay strong and strengthen up our friendship. Through all the lies, the sad goodbyes…The things we hide, the tears we've cried…Through odds & ends, we've been best friends…Though times have passed, the memories last…
You are why I live for... at -1/01/2007 02:44:00 AM