Sunday, July 29, 2007
I realized that its better to miss someone that is dead than alive.I rather miss someone whom is gone forever
You are why I live for... at -7/29/2007 05:48:00 PM
Saturday, July 28, 2007
I just wanna say sorry to people whom I ignored these days.I can only say that to some people, some friends, I am no longer who I used to be. To many people, I might be a different person now. Seriously, I don't know what I am doing.
I have no motivation at all.
I am sick of studying all of the sudden.
I have no motivation at all to continue.
I always tell myself, go to school, at least for 'di' n Xbb in the past...
I am still doing it... but the word 'pon' & 'zhao' halfway of lesson. I am useless. I can't control.
I really want to study. I want to excel in my studies like what I have had in the past. But Why I can't do it now? Why?
I don't know.
Scold me. Say me. It's still the same. I am a bad girl , no longer the innocent one in everyone's eyes. I am crazy & siao & emo.
There's so much things happening around me. Perhaps its not really that much, but my mind is just pondering so much. So that's why everyone say don't think so much 'jas'. And So i always say I wish I m DEAD. SO i can don't think so much. Understand...
yea, I don't want to make my problems other people's problem.
But I always caused other's pissed off or unhappy. So just ignore me. If you want to care for me, use your true heart and care to care for me. Don't do it for the sake of doing it or pleasing me.
THANKS ALOT=)
I am really sick n tired of going to school. Lots of reasons... --> the school system, the PEOPLE there, the facilitators out there, the friends I made there.
i jus hate myself.
nothing left to say.
You are why I live for... at -7/28/2007 10:04:00 PM
Monday, July 23, 2007
the wind is shaking the windows, and over my small room, the stars fill up the sky, shining brightly... too many to count, the stars reassure tired me, they wipe away the many tears that are deep inside medon't be hurt too much..they hug me tight and pamper me
and comfort me, telling me to go to sleep
though I'm exhausted to the point where I can't walk
though my tears blur my vision
I'll still smile in front of my love that I'm not able to get
Even though our happy times were short, I'll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever
My dream is coming. though it is unusual that my one star is bright
it is very bright, even blinding..it comes down to my shoulder
stop being so sad..it holds my hand as it touches me
and gives me a warm hug
though I'm exhausted to the point where I can't walk
though my tears blur my vision
I'll still smile in front of my love that I'm not able to get
Even though our happy times were short, I'll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever
Only for today, I won't cry though my eyes fill with tears
I want to laugh like those stars
Oh~ I want to cherish all my happy moments deep inside my heart
Like those countless number of stars, forever
You are why I live for... at -7/23/2007 01:15:00 PM
I've been looking at people
And how they change with the times
And lately all I've been seeing are people
Throwing love away and losing their minds
Or maybe it's me that's gone crazy
'Cause I can't understand why
All these people keep hurting each other
When good love is so hard to come by
So what's the glory in living
Doesn't anybody ever stay together anymore
And if love never lasts forever
Tell me what's forever for
I've been listening to people
And they say love is the key
And it's not my way to let them lead me astray
It's only that I want to believe
But I see love-hungry people
Trying their best to survive
While in their hands is a dying romance
And they're not even trying to keep it alive
So what's the glory in living
Doesn't anybody ever stay together anymore
And if love never lasts forever
Tell me what's forever for
And if love never lasts forever
Tell me what's forever for
You are why I live for... at -7/23/2007 01:08:00 PM
Sunday, July 22, 2007
If someone lost the respect you had given to them, give them a second chance.Has someone let you down? It happens from time to time, so don't let it ruin a relationship. They made a mistake, they fell short of your expectations, and they may have even lost some of the respect you've given them. It's important for you to let them earn it back -- don't give them a test or a task, but give them a second chance. You might be a bit more wary next time, but you need to keep an open mind. You have been where they are, you know how hard it can be.
I have been through alot alot... I know its hard...and afterall it's the same after so much I been through. Sometimes it doesn't seems to get better. But I still believe that everyone is worth to be given a chance. I believe that everyone is different.
The art of communication is wanting to to know what the person is thinking and how is the person getting well with his life. Not just normal chatting like 'how's ur sch, how's ur day...etc...
We should let the person know that you care about how he feels and how he is getting on with his life.
You are why I live for... at -7/22/2007 09:03:00 PM
Monday, July 16, 2007
It's been quite long since I blog...Suddenly got the urge to blog...
Just came back from running at Bukit Gombak Stadium... Well, I m back to my running life n exercising life. To people in poly, or outside friends hearing me exercising/ running will be shocked. But to my secondary school friends, it's nothing big deal =)
It may be unbelievable to many friends that I used to run for my class, cross country, sports day and so on in primary & secondary school... And it's really quite saddening and hurting hearing them not believing I run and love sports...Yeah I am fatter, but I still have the stamina and I can challenge you if you want. ha ha... But it's true, in e past, I am really 'into' to running the most and seeing soccer matches ( supporting my school). I truly enjoyed running and sports a lot, and taking part in competition. To my sec friends, they all knows. But now, it's such a disgrace for me. People outside or my poly friends won't believe la, but who cares la. I know I love what I do and I will do what I love.
After graduation from sec, it's not I don't like sports / running anymore, but the time and effort I make is not there. There are many reasons for that, I am really feeling so disappointed and a disgrace for losing my interest I used to have and I am going to train hard and smart now to get back what I want.
I believe I can do it with my determination. Just now when I was running, I saw a few guys whom are training for 4*100 relay competition... It reminds me of Aisya,dewi,chiew lian, and some other of my sec friends... I really miss my secondary life...Not only miss the friends there, the activities and days we had there...but also the life like trainings for cross country, sports day, netball during sec 2&3... staying back to see Basketball trainings/ competitions held at clementi sports hall ... Staying back to see soccer trainings/matches...
I remember there are some times after my trainings/competitions , one of my eyes will go swollen. I don't know the reason till now. But luckily my friends are always there for me those days. Luckily just now my eyes ain't swollen. ha ha ha
* every memories that will never be replaced always*
You are why I live for... at -7/16/2007 07:46:00 PM
Sunday, July 01, 2007
If I were blue, would you be there for me,And whisper in my ears that's ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.
If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,And never look back..
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,to take my breath away?
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,to take my breath away?
Would you be there..
If I am away would u still think of me
And wish that you could hold me now
Or would you die for me
Would you run with me all the way
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,to take my breath away?
Would you be there to save my soul tonight
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you will always be there to kiss my pain away
Would you be there to love to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you will always be the one to take my breath away
Would you be there to save my soul tonight
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you will always be there to kiss my pain away
Would you be there for me
You are why I live for... at -7/01/2007 01:06:00 AM