Sunday, August 19, 2007
Friday- Went to watch fireworks with pohying, aaron, siwei, Hweeting, Geokhwa, Mingyao,CheeSiang. It's nice and fun hanging out with them. Since a long time we never gathered this way. I hided my sadness in my heart to look happy and be a crazy girl in front of them. I don't want to spoil anyone mood. =) I wish to watch again next yr...but with...?hahaWent to eat burger king around 11pm plus... Then, we went to mindcafe at parkway there. Chilled there till 3 plus. Saw my another groups of friends there too. Shared cab with 3 of them home=)
Saturday- Supposed to watch fireworks again with one of my fren 'j'. But ended up eating sakae Sushi buffet ! so scare very rush, that's why chose to go shopping... to look for STYLE clothes. ha ha. but can't find and no $$ also. After that, went to JE to play pool, then to Kbox! till 4am!! woooo....
Let me suffer alone. I don't wish others to suffer with me.Its a MUST for me to learn to handle things NOW.FACE IT MYSELF!
This is what I have been telling myself. TO suffer alone, clear the mess myself. Don't pull anyone to clear it for me or suffer with me. But again and again, I let my parents suffer with me. I am really sorry. Truly sorry. Yes, I am no longer the 'gal' they know. They see me torturing myself by doing things I never do, they felt the pain I am going through. But I hate myself for suffering alone and making them suffer too. Let me suffer myself. Let me keep everything in my heart. I will be alright, but just can't find back myself.
Put a gun to my heart
At the loud sound, let everything return to the start
If love means that nothing can be liberated
I won't struggle, I'm no different anyway
I stand alone, scanning this forgotten wasteland
Seeing the ends of the earth, the edges of the sky cannot be seen
Alone I wait for an infinite amount of time
Feeling all the memories revolve around meI still remember when we walked to this place together, quietly lying next to each other
I said from then on my heart
will never have another direction,
You also promised,
tightly grasping my two hands.
But now how much time has passed us by,
replacing and rotating the same place
so that a different scene
has taken its place
Now the only thing that lingers in the sky
is my cold, melancholy cry
blowing so that I can't hear
hear the promise you made
already disappear into this wasteland
Tomorrow's story is all mine, mine
There is more than one type of so-called happiness
The beautiful spring, summer, autumn, winter, and falling leaves are mine
I only understand what a dream is after experiencing it for myself
You are why I live for... at -8/19/2007 02:05:00 PM