Today is 20oct. it's Alex 1 yr death anniversary. Wat a day.Time flies so fast, seriously, i can't feel that you left us for 1 yr, living in a different world. It's like just yesterday.
My heart still aches in sadness and secret tears still flow. Went to visit Alex in the late noon, accompanied by dear. Today sat there quite long, wanted to spend a bit longer time with Alex there, stayed there ard 40 minutes, when going back saw his small sister. She's sweet, especially with the friendly smile, indeed sweet=)
I remember the days, really the days when I am down, sad, depressed, over Alex's death, over broken relationships, over school work or family problems... I remember 2 person whom is there for me for this period of time.
Joan & Ke Wei. My best buddies, my xiong's family. I miss them. Really thankful for them to be here for me whenever I am faced with those problems. Never leaving me alone, always there willingly to pull me up from the lowest pit. Never failed to listen to my sorrows and pain, greatly appreciate all. I will never forget both of you. Of course there are a lot other people that walked through with me for those times, there are many that I can't simply named all out. But be sure you guys have walked through the parts and parcels of my life. People like.. Kc robot`baba`, shiyun, mavia, pohying, PeiMing jie, Cheeseng, and a lot others... thanks for always listening to my pain, sorrows, happiness, nonsense. *HUGS*
Joan- my best best buddy, always there for me, I know I have always ps you in school cuz I always pon. but gal, I am trying hard this sem, esp knowing I am in the same class as you. I am sick those few days, that's why didn't go. Didn't mean to leave you alone there. Hope we will still be the same !~ Love you girl. Ke Wei- it's been really long time since we met. I really, truely miss the days we go to school together, eating our breakfast together. Disturbing you in msn, giving comments to each other in friendster. And a lot more. I am really happy to have you this 'di'. Hope that we will meet up soon, to 'play'? lols . dun want to drift apart with you n joan, hope the times will come back soon alright? You noe I treasure friendship, remember the happy moments, memories we all had together for the past 1 yr. Don't let it be just memories. Hope we will still meet up, now, and also after we graduate=) I dun wish to let other's know that I have a good 'di' in the past, but also I am having a good di `fren now~! Letting go? Can you do it or can you not?
I am sure we all have faced problems in our lives and sometimes when we try to drop it, we feel the pain in our hearts. Honestly, it’s easier said than done because there are times when no matter how hard we’ve tried, we will not be able to let certain things go from our lives.
Perhaps some of you may have not experienced this before but what I can tell you from my own first hand experience is, it’s neither easy to let go nor to forget something that we’ve had in our hearts and soul for such a long time. It does take time and when time pass by things will change, either for the better or for worst.
Letting go may not be the last resort for certain problems but when you yourself know that there isn’t any solution for that existing problem between you and your peers, siblings or others, do know that it’s the time to let go of your attachments. As I’ve said, it does take time and you cannot just drop something that you’ve build over the years or months in just one night or even a week! That is why time will help us in letting go although it’s a tedious task.
I’ve come to a point that I’ve realised that there is certain stuff that one has to forget and also let go because we are still humans and remember nothing is perfect in this live of ours. Living life to the fullest is the best and when you’re bothered by cumbersome problems or thoughts that wouldn’t even matter to anyone, it’s just a waste of time. I am not an expert but flashing back my own recent memories I’ve realised that nothing is permanent in this life.
Morrie Schwartz once said:
Don’t cling to things because everything is impermanent.
You cannot go running and chasing other people’s tails because that is not the right thing to do. Besides, you have your own life and shouldn’t be bothered about what others think of you or what people might say behind your back. All these happen because it’s one of our human nature. Things happen. We cannot turn back the time because it’s impossible.
What’s more, I believe that we should live our own lives and not living our lives for others. I mean, frankly, it’s for our sake and remember, not others. People may not like what you’re doing or what you have in mind, so just screw it because there is one thing we cannot change in this world. And it’s their thoughts and minds. Yes, things may be easier if we can read their minds but this will not happen.
Think about the future. Think of the long run and not short run. If you let problems bug you till you get depressed, it will not do you good either because you’re only hurting yourself at the end of the day. And what’s more, you’re not going to hurt the other party as they will not feel what you’re feeling at the moment. Perhaps, they have pawned you if you do succumb in front of their menacing eyes. It’s like a psychological warfare.
What I’d say is be tough, strong and don’t let the strong gale blow your stand away. Stay firm on the ground and believe in yourself and what you can do to lead a happier life and don’t go troubling yourself with those cumbersome thoughts as it will not only pull you down, it will hurt you to the max. Once you’ve learnt to let go some of those troublesome thoughts, your life will be happier and more cheery for the days to come!
Dear readers, is letting go easy or hard? Any experiences of your own?