Tuesday, April 28, 2009
It's been so long since I update my blog.I wonder if anyone reads it anyway?
haha
Really full of unhappiness, and just to pour out all here if I could.
Why am I still there? I wonder how long more I can stay there.
I know that I am not the best person , not the most clever person. But I wish to have more exposure to just only 'scan n photocopy'. I wish to get involved more. Yes, for my future, also for my good. But who wants to work as a person with such scopes given but nicer position name only?
I am not saying if I were given some other stuffs to do, I can get it right and nice. But I am willing to try if you give me a chance and guide me 1st! Dun expect me to know how to start when I didnt even have any experience.
It's just like u you want a baby to walk himself, but you need to teach him in the start 1st, den let him walk n fall on his way of learning.
But if you dun teach me from the start, I cant and DUN even know what is standing.
Does it makes some sense out there?
I dun like the feeling of being left out, I hate it.
Dun tell me you expect alot from me when I am just a small 'ANT' to you .
Dun tell me that you want me to make improvements when you dun get me to discussion.
or letting me in discussion halfway ( head & toe) , and expect me to the noe the body and give opinions etc...
What can I do??
I rushed home, try to do what interest me.
started singing. hoping I can feel better, but I just couldn't get concentrated and can't sing like me. Keep thinking still!!! shit damn shit!
So I started dancing , and I get to get more concentrated. Felt so happy and relief at the moment!!! it's really nice.
However, good thing ends fast and things get to my mind after it. :(
You are why I live for... at -4/28/2009 10:09:00 PM